Jungle

What has the world come to today, chivalry and good manners used to be the most important character traits in a person. As the years go by it's like people have less and less respect for their fellow man or woman. It's almost as if people enjoy being disrespected, they enjoy being treated like shit. I've seen a lot of people I know not stand up for themselves before, and it seriously sickens me. Sometimes the only reason people get hurt is cause they don't stand up for themselves and if they did they would be much better off.

The transition between the summer semester and this semester has been quite strange. I felt in control this summer, I made my own decisions and relied on myself more than I have in the past. I put myself out there and strived to be the best I could be in school and out. I was surrounded by people who are very fun to be around and who I could spend time with. This Summer was probably the strongest i've ever been. Having the freedom to make big decisions, exploring the city through new means such as biking. I had the time of my life.

Now that it's the fall semester, It feels as if I've stepped into a Zoo. I never really had that stereotypical college attitude of partying and drinking until I puke attitude, it seems ridiculous to me. I started partying my Junior year, but I feel as if that was only a distraction from some life changes. Well it was definitely a distraction, but it turned into the normal thing to do and I stuck with it.

Is that how people get through life though? Do they have it all at one point, get struck down and then find a distraction that will outweigh their dispair? Does anyone ever truly get over anything? Once you get to know someone, you think you know them, or you think that you know that you know them. But do you really? How could all emotions just get up and leave?

I write this with hope that I will find what I'm looking for, and enjoy the search as it comes to me. Sometimes it's good to get your emotions out in written forms, even if other people were to read them.