At this moment right now, I don't think I could be anything else but myself. I feel like I have found the purest form of myself and that this is what I have been looking for. In the past month I have done numerous amounts of things which secure my future, whether it be with school, jobs or most importantly friends.
I have finished a new portfolio, it took me two months of hard thinking and procrastinating but I completed it, and I am proud to display it publicly to people and receive whatever good or bad criticism it deserves. I have also successfully applied to the Masters program at my school, and only my school. For as much as I complain about my school, it is still a fine institution and I have learned a hell of a lot more there than I could have ever dreamed. And I'm ready to learn a lot more too.
In 17 days I will be boarding a flight from Boston to Frankfurt where I will then journey to Montpellier, France. I am privileged enough to be able to study abroad in France for the next 3 months. Being able to travel, enjoy a new country, a new continent, and meet new and interesting people.
I have comfort knowing that no matter what happens to me in my future right now, that I will either be securely in school for another year, acquiring knowledge and being with friends I care greatly about; Or, I will be working in NYC at RAND Engineering and Architecture PC striving to become the best Project Associate that they have ever seen and soon to be licensed professional. When this happens I plan on living in Queens with my best friend, going on adventures and both livin the dream as young aspiring professionals. And I know that whichever road happens that I will always have the support of my very good friends and my loving family.
I know that previous posts in this blog display me as confused and angry. And I suppose that I'm allowed to be angry sometimes and everyone gets confused. I'm not one to keep the same emotion running for long though. I always tell people it's impossible for me to stay angry, or be 100% serious and that's true. I don't see the point in staying with one bad emotion all the time, you are capable is a strong minded human being to over come your bad emotions and figure out what it is that makes you feel that way.
Maybe it's only me who can think that way, maybe there are more. All that I know is that at this point in time. I'm enjoying life, and I hope that it enjoys me.
